Simplest Version of prolonged thoughts!

I always thought that 'Sleeping' is the most easiest task, but actions defy thoughts most of the times. I am not any exception to their job. Whenever I face such a situation, in simpler terms, every night I keep telling myself "Grow UP !!", just wishing that there should'nt exist such a day when I still keep saying it to myself and I suddenly realise that, "I have grown OLD!!"

One Person World ! (Esoteric Expressions)

It is the thoughts of someone that keeps the fragrance of a totally imaginary flower linger around, not just for a long time but for the rest of the life. When situation demands should the small world converge to a single person? Is it really true that 'the world works this way', as one of my friend puts it? I disagreed with him for there existed someone who I could think of and just wipe out those words. The value given to a person is not merely for a part of the life but it remains alive even after death in the form of deeds and expressions. But, ya it is not fair to dismiss the thought that people change and are never the same. The ability to handle any changes in a balanced manner is what life is supposed to teach us. If we are not docile, that does'nt in any way mean things are bound to happen the way they had been since ages and generations. Well, if growing up is nothing but narrowing down and freezing the boundaries, definitely the world will converge to a single person!!

Lost to the times..Perhaps lost at the moment itself !!

So Close..Yet so Far,
Simplest feeling ever, of the multitude,
The trap could'nt recognise me, did it? NEVER !
For I was not a mere fruit of Ephemeral Pulchritude.

Never did I miss,
The crests and troughs of Attitude,
But it was always a Bliss,
For smile was my companion in Solitude.

There were words and pain, silence and war,
Unperturbed glory eloped with smiles.
So Close yet So Far,
For we still got to travel miles and miles.

Crappy huh!! Well..those which sound beyond pragmatism * are bound to be mere Crap.
*for those read and not write, exceptions exist.

Brighter side of life !!

Whatever things might tend to be, the tinge of skepticism or the so called pessimism is part of the shadow. Though the screen of vision is bright and glossy, "WHY IS THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF LIFE ALWAYS GLOOMY?" Its not a philosophical note but not even that which can be washed away as a rhetoric. A few of those great moments that filled hearts tend to move away with time, and the heaviness of choice has to be carried along throughout the journey.
Well..getting back to simpler straight issues, its my first day as an intern in NCAER. May be a nice place, yet to discover some happiness here. But, ya I'll dig in for it very soon. Missing all my friends, but its part and parcel of life. OMG!! Another Cliche on its way hanging around my neck and bothering me to the extent of letting my vision blur for a moment. I'll get back after short clearance..till then Sayonara with a smile (A small curve that sets mant things straight).

Holiday Mood

This is intended to sound monotonic, rather very important for it to be so. Delving into the depths of time, I can closely observe the fact that things never change, for that matter it is just illusionary to feel the dynamism of any issue. As an Economist, (well..I take a chance to call myself so at least now for the NCAER entry part) it is not fair on my part to say dynamics is close to crap. But, it is definitely close to something atrocious. If there is any deviation from the regular stream of happenings, it is showcased to be purposeful. Nothing can more stupefying. It is not sufficient to define individual property rights , but it is individual thought comfort rights that have to be defined. True that economics considers children as social goods, but the boundaries were left at the mercy of the bulldozers of the society. Hmm..finally it is important for everything said above to induce monotony into the way they could be absorbed, because am just NORMAL !!

WAR (I ME MYSELF)

"If I ever witnessed a war,
there were only 2 players so far.

One who is struggling to relieve itself from the mists of time,
sharing its pain with me though there was no indelible crime.

The other in disguise is no foe,
But regret and sorrow in a mow.

They share a common abode,
where they never miss to cross the code.

Its just me and me,
Leaving no chance to flee

Its not a single moment which triggered me to pen down something that can let all the pain off..I might have great company for many of them would definitely feel the same as I wrote above.

War of Thoughts

Back home after eight semesters..the world sounds like it is stable at this instance, well..they at least say so, coming down to the political results. But, if we have to define stability, I'll stand a good chance to getting my definition approved. After looking through my previous posts, a slight introspection makes me feel am confused to the core, but that's what makes me completely normal even at times which climb the chart to be marked abnormal. Coming to keeping up with relationships, it is definitely a task far ahead of simply playing with words. Hmm..this isn't just dropping out of the blue, it always has been a priority and will remain forever. Oooofffff....enough of beating around the bush..I Miss my Friends..

Final Compree

Ahhhh..finally, adios to the courses that gave me company for four long years keeping me totally insulated from them. This might be the smallest post of all, including the ones in the future, as I just realized its too difficult to speak of something that disowns me. I could finally feel the "unfelt". But very true..the most ephemeral of all on earth are just these momentary jerks of psycological imbalances that tend me to overspeak in a disorderly fashion that I wonder how I myself am incomprehendable. Its just the nervousness thats ruling the moment, may be and just may be ! The undiscovered traits slowly glow in the dark, making the part of 'the brighter side of life being always gloomy' an efficient truth capable enough to prove me not so skeptical about watever said. Ya....this does sound pessimistic if perceived from a pretentious stand, but do not mistake it for just 'preparing for the worst' , it has always been better than that and will remain so forever.From the reference frame of truth, its just been perky mood as time tends to....say Lunch Time (:P)..well..the world outside is waiting..I'll go get done with my last compree and then stay perky forever :)

Consys Experience

To begin with this, I might sound very monotonic coming to managing exams, burning mid-night oil, sleepy during the test, blank writing the test, regretting for a little while thinking, 'damn! should'nt have skipped that part in the book'.....definitely not an endless list, but am bored myself.
Today, I felt it was terrible..just another day of an exam. Sounding pessimistic has'nt come of age, but yaa..it just came out of that frustration listening to a few people doing things the way they ought to be done. Reminiscent of the past, 'who was'nt an achiever?' , this always sounded great. But now..I presume everyone has an answer for the scenario I am trying to pretend to complicate. To put the test in plain simple words, its goes something that can be like this..A few preposterous 'dead' people are invited to visit the place where they are given a chance to question us or the most scariest part being, 'do you know this chap? do you this one at least?' the course instructor virtually yelling at us this way..its way too intolerable..after all this horror filled scenario, the bell goes..ya the option of not waiting for it is always inviting, but the 'guilt' made me wait for it. Finally I am done with it !! its party time again..

JUST BEFORE MY COMPRE

When Heisenberg rules, he fails to rule the arena of misfortune. Its my first comprehensive test in final semester, in an hour from now. This seemed the best way to mark the moment. I decided to wake up Heisenberg from his grave and challenge him that the fate of my test is gonna be certain. Well this might sound crappy if scientifically challenged, but anything and everything is most of the times right, provided psychologically fought. I take this leverage to unarguably argue. Well..getting back to the perky style, signing off today with my first blogging experience with yummy cheesy smile :)